To rest is to travel further.

2010-02-20T15:02:00.002+08:00

I DREAMT OF PERCY DEWEY! FATTY BOM BOM!!
I DIDN'T ENJOY THE CELEBRATION OF MY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!
I HATE THE LIFE DD IS PROVIDING ME!!
I AM LIKE LIVING IN HELL!!
AND I'M NOT GOING TO BOW TO FATE! I'M CONTROLLING IT!

2010-01-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

If by taking part in bringing some bacon home can make or let you speak louder or even yell, then i shall or should take part then!!

2010-01-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Random unhappiness on random days:

He almost screw up Bonkers' 1st b'day.
I felt kind of 'lose face' when we ran out of food when we've so many guests.
My parents took their time & arrived late for their grandsons' party. And everyone was asking 'Where's your parents? Ask them come quick!'
i forgot to update Bonkers' progress again.
I hate living here. It's totally hazardous.
After being together for 10 years he still doesn't know what i expect or my expectations.
My eyes were red from crying & he didnt even notice it.
I wanted to give up BTO & get a resale flat. He dont want.
Why ask mother everything? Do you ask your mum whether u can have sex before getting into my pants??

Random thoughts:

I wonder what will happen to Bonkers' life if i'm gone. Who will play classical music & put them to sleep? Who will sterilise their feeding stuff? Who will buy super old fashion clothes for them? Who will bring them out for walks?
Should i continue to stay with my parents till we get our own flat?
Should i stay to make my in-laws happy or leave to make my life easier & happier?
Will we end up in divorce?
Sometimes i wish i have venom-filled teeth too.

2009-11-29T11:27:00.002+08:00

It's the 4th day i'd this dream.
It's excruciatingly pain when i'm inside this dream.

In the dream, DD & bonkers left me.
I dont know the 'Left' is they're dead or other particular reasons.
Then i left SG & was roaming in a foreign country.
the country looks like Rome where they have this big water fountain where people make wishes etc.
There i saw cz! Like 'huh??'
Then suddenly he disappear. Like 'huh??' again.
I walk around & realised i'm in all black.
Like mourning. Alone.
Very sad.
Everything are like so so real.
Like it actually happen in reality.

I hope it'll never EVER happen.

2009-11-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

Am i able to do it alone with Bonkers...?
Maybe yes maybe not...
I really need to make the house children-friendly before moving back.
Its causing me headache with all these stuff..
The house is like full of trash.
Dustbin need to be change, washing machine is spoilt...
Safety gates to be install, play yard needed...
Wires all need to hide up well, drawers too...
Need to make the place as spacious as possible...
God... someone help me with all these man...

2009-11-24T23:05:00.002+08:00

I can't believe i've to live on Maximizers & i totally hate it when i remove bra from my body. I don't even wanna look at them, i don't even wanna be naked or changing with my husband in the room. It's not that i regret pregnant or breast feeding. I just dont understand why they have to become sag. Even the bra sales person looked stunned when she saw them as i asked her to help me while trying on a bra. It's just so upsetting... I feel like grabbing them out of my body & pump air into it. How can i make them look like before again?

2009-11-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

"I will always love you
I will always stay true
There's no one who loves you like I do
This I promise.
I will never leave you
I will stand here with you
Though the good and bad I will stand true."

10 yrs down the road will couples rem their vows for each other still?

2009-11-06T00:36:00.001+08:00

For a moment i wanted to kill Bonkers & myself. I dont want us to be an anchor to you.

2009-10-30T15:21:00.001+08:00

Can i have Poetry or Piper or Pierre soon so i can do my own stuff??

2009-10-30T01:44:00.002+08:00

I'm going to live like no tommorrow.
I'm living with a 'I dont care anymore' attititude.
I'm just going to make my way through whatever it happens in my way to future.
I'm just so so alert while typing all these.
I just want my life to be easier and more relaxed.

2009-10-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

The Prob With Twins.

they get hungry at the same time.
they fall at the same time.
they hurt themselves at the same place, same site, same time.
they eat/drink the same amount, same time.
the left over the same amount of food/milk, same time
they cry/laugh at the same time.
they poo at the same time.
they bleed with the same amount of blood, same time.
the only diff - their physical appearance.

...though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day...

2009-10-20T13:08:00.003+08:00

This is the original pic.

This is after edit.

2009-10-17T13:22:00.006+08:00

Which is good? Opinions pls!!

王颽喆 ONG KAI ZHE (sounds like Ong Kar Chen- 'pi gu' in hokkien)

王颽铭 ONG KAI MING

王镛竣 ONG YONG JUN (like the korean actor Bei Yong Jun)

王镛诚 ONG YONG CHENG

Time to rant...

2009-10-16T01:02:00.002+08:00

You're irritating me more and more.
You're a selfish man.
You're not the only one with a child. WE HAVE TWINS.
Just say you're plain lazy and dont take your baby as an excuse. I dont buy it.
If your baby needs 4 persons to look after, do i need 8?
Lame lame lame...
Stingy, selfish, ego, show-off, procrastinator, self-centered, brainless.
You ought to pity yourself.
And let's hope your baby doesnt feel ashamed to have a father like you.

2009-10-13T16:19:00.002+08:00

嫁出去的女儿, 还是你女儿, 你妹妹, 你姐姐.
I suddenly want my own place badly.
不想看人脸色过活.

2009-10-09T12:47:00.002+08:00

Went pedicure ytd... nv try blue b4 so i took the risk. Nice hor!!!

2009-10-07T00:01:00.003+08:00

Why do i want all the money in the world if i've to spend my life alone without my family & friends? I'd rather be poor with my loved ones around me than be rich & lonely.

I'm totally fine without a career at this age. I'm totally fortunate & happy with 2 kids, thanks for your great concern. I can always work when Bonkers are older. I just want to spend time with them. I want to see them grow. I want to be with them throughout their childhood. I just want to grow old with them around. I will try to give them the best.

IT'S OK & I'M FINE BEING IN THE CATEGORY OF 'LOW INCOME FAMILY'. THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN.

2009-10-02T23:17:00.004+08:00

From Claris 'selfish' iphone...

From WWQ's generous hp.

WHATEVER YOU SEE OR CHAT OR READ IN THIS BLOG/ENTRIES ENDS HERE.

My 1st tattoo! An ambigram! from left you'll see DEAN, From right you'll see DYLAN. I finally got myself one after 3 yrs of waiting. Think 1 or 2 more to come... wahahaha! DD is so going to get mad at me....

My hell.

2009-09-29T00:07:00.002+08:00

After some reading of articles i think i should blog down how i felt throughout my 9 mths plus of motherhood. It may be short, but its full of emotions one can never know unless you been thru it.

It wasn't an easy task nor an easy way. I was thrilled and excited about welcoming my Bonkers 9mths ago. I cant wait to see them, to deliver them safely into this world. I swear I'll give them nothing but the best. I may not be wealthy but I'll never starve them.

Yes, i lack of sleep everyday. I lost my self confidence, i care about how i look when i go out now, unlike how i used to be. I don't like my husband to see my naked body anymore, I'm bothered about my stretchmarks. I'm not interested in sex after pregnancy. I did regret stopping breast feeding when Bonkers turn 6mths old. But it doesn't matter now. They're typically eating every hour now!

I used to be worrying about their growth every min every sec. Seeing other children growing 'big' with them having the same age as Bonkers, i always, never fail, to blame myself whenever Bonkers fall sick. Articles always says that breast milk keeps your baby healthy n don't fall sick easily. But my Bonkers are different. Maybe b'coz they're pre-matured. It may not seem like a big deal but even if they came out 1 min later makes a very big difference. Its critical every sec of their lives when they're inside the womb. I didn't feel worried or frightened until i lied on the cold OT table, with tubes & machines beeping everywhere in the room.

I guess this is what every daughter-in-laws went thru with their mother-in-laws or parents-in-laws - arguments. Tolerance is the key.

The last episode of me going totally insane was Dylan's hospitalization & Dean having diarrhoea. Dylan was having fever on a Friday night but i didn't realized. I just thought it's his body temp. Sat came & his temp shot up to 38 degree Celsius. I suddenly felt scared & was helpless. My mum was heading to work & i was alone. I gave him fever med, thinking the fever will subside.

Then came the abnormal cries & diarrhoea. Fever did not subside at all. I panicked. Everything just happened so fast & suddenly. The next thing i knew & remember was we're at Mt A. DD kept saying go KKH which i believe will be very crowded & long Q since i worked there before. Was feeling upset with all the $$ matters he kept emphasizing. In my mind i just want him to stay there & recover soon.

At the A&E, drs there mentioned about putting Dylan on drip. Tears filled up my eyes. I muster my courage to accept that. Then came Dr Irene Chan who visited Dylan & took his poo to the lab. As Dylan was still active, drip was not put up. You can never imagine how happy & relieved i was. Drip is a painful treatment.

While at Mt A, Dean was at home having diarrhoea. At that moment i broke down in the ward with Dylan sleeping in my arms. I was alone. I kept thinking why all this shit happened to my Bonkers & why do i have to face all these alone. Other wives & kids have their husbands & fathers be with them. but where's mine?

I started venting my emotions on Facebook & misunderstandings happened. Really, all the shit just came down on me. Luckily now everything is over.

Life may be full of twists & turns, but it is the love of a mother for her defenceless child that has kept me going strong, despite the many adversities i have encountered. I believe that being a good & strong mum is to stay positive always & think of being the best for your baby.

2009-09-28T13:15:00.002+08:00

I hate it when people say my parents are leading a bitter life coz they've to look after their grandsons. What logic is this?! MIND YOUR OWN SHIT PLS.
I'm sick n tired of envying people. Other wives have their their husbands to go back to them everyday every night I DON'T. I really hope this will end soon. N stop telling me i can this i can that coz its not working out. I've tried.
I'm going to get myself a tattoo this thur n no one can stop me.
I'm not venting or ranting or being emo, I'm juz saying out my feelings n thoughts. N mind you all THIS IS MY BLOG MY SPACE. Dont like what i typed here? Close this window. As easy as ABC.

2009-09-24T12:54:00.002+08:00

Went to see a feng shui with Claris last wk n decided to change Bonkers' chinese name.
Told DD but he wasnt supportive.
How to tell my in laws then??
Spoke to SIL n she suggest i dont change 1st.
Feels like shit man...........

REST NEEDED

2009-09-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

FULL TIME MUM NEEDS SOME TIME OFF TOO! WE'RE ONLY HUMAN.

2009-09-15T12:08:00.002+08:00

Sea turtles hunting started in Europe Hawaii in the 1800s.
Baby sea turtles make their own way into the sea after they're hatched. They are independent from the start! They know the survivor skills.
Baby turtles eat jellyfishes! Adult turtles eat crabs! Powerful jaws!!!
Female turtles are mostly green.
Female turtles actually dig with their fins just before they gave birth. Strong!
95% of the sharks are throw back into the sea after humans cut off their tails n fins while they're still conscious.
The penis of a sperm whale is 2meters long.

SAD

2009-09-07T19:07:00.004+08:00

I'm fed up n sad.
Bonkers still on recovering mode. No milk only porridge or baby food n Pedialyte drink.
I feel so emotional now.
I feel DD doesnt care about us. So what he's not well? So am i... yet i still have to look after Bonkers n Dylan even got admitted.
DD kept saying wan go KKH which i banned that hospital from my list forever.
I just wan the best treatment for my Bonkers.
I needed rest too... I'm worn out.
He juz leaves as he likes, comes as he please.
I dont like the feeling of being push here n there.
I have so many things n unhappiness to say but it juz wont come out from my mouth.
I hate all feeings right now.
I'M NOT HAPPY WITH YOU, ONG SHU YUN.

2009-08-27T21:20:00.003+08:00

Courses hope to take:

Cooking & Baking (maybe Serene can teach me lolx!)
French (sending Bonkers when they turn 2).
Yoga, Pilates, Kickboxing & Combat.

the last few moments b4 gave birth

2009-08-26T21:31:00.003+08:00

2009-06-21T00:01:00.004+08:00

Heard from Noor n Kat that ex-CDU now needs a TA. I was very tempted to join but its a 70-30. Coz apparently DD thinks he can n is able to 'feed' us 4. I doubt so. We're tight b4 end of the mth most of the time. And apparently he n his mum are not keen to help by getting a maid. I was pissed off actually. Nvm, we shall see.

As for married life n motherhood, i'm very pleased n proud to say - life is good, happily stress with the Bonkers n very glad i'm not staying with my in-laws. If i stay with them i'll end up fighting with them 1 day. And i'm trying to prevent it. Reason why we'll fight - our style of bringing up children. Sometimes i really think that in their family, they only know n are very good at using their mouths - talk without actions. I always hated people behaving that way. either this or procastination. Super piss me off with immediate effect! And when i keep repeting DD says i'm naggy. Well, thats the women power.

Bonkers are doing well. Hyper, kpo, 'talking' either to themselves or to each other, baby-walker bumping, screaming, fingers sucking, pooing, peeing, etc. Sometimes i hear them saying 'mama' while whining. LOL! I'm typically enjoying every moment with them. Wondering if i can have twin girls 3 yrs later. hmm... i dont mind actually.. since its a c-sec. Take 1 baby out like 'bor hua', take 2 put still ok LOL!!!!

Oh ya, i've stop breast feeding. 2 main reasons - they prefer cereal n i'm losing too much weight. So... yeah! Wine, Sake n Fa Guo Lang Jiu, here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-21T19:07:00.002+08:00

Wooo been wks since i last blog.

Anyways, life's gd for me. Though tired & stuck @ home (sometimes for 2wks or more), but the Bonkers make my everyday life more & more meaningful & fulfilling. Sometimes i still think how amazing that i'm a mum already! 2 kids' mum! Wahahaha! Yet still i'm young & pretty!!!!!! *Vomit*

Everywhere i go i wanted to bring the Bonkers along but difficult. So i only bring them downstairs to the playground.

2009-03-09T23:11:00.002+08:00

DD should be grateful that i did not jump off the building with the Bonkers. At least now i know the reasons behind Bonkers' @#$%^*& and am relieved that there's solutions to it but takes longer time.

2009-02-12T21:33:00.001+08:00

2009-02-10T12:37:00.001+08:00

I'm a lousy mum....

2009-01-28T01:34:00.003+08:00

I haven't gotten any sleep in weeks, and I'm just exhausted. Nope, i'm not suffering from post natal depression, its postpartum exhaustion.

I finally broke down yesterday evening & at night. I couldnt control the feeling and emotions that came. Still i went ahead to aunt's place thinking i'll feel better with my family and cousins all. Everyone asked why my eyes are swollen. I just shaked them off by saying its my contact lens. Think mum knew there's something not right in me that she suggested she bring home Dean to help look after so i can sleep.

I didnt know DD wanted to spend more time with the Bonkers so i agreed to mum's suggestion. DD face changed and i felt i did something wrong again. I cried all the way home. Each time the Bonkers cry, i feel guilty. Every baby suffer from baby colic (which i just knew & found out) which is normal.

Bro & Matt came by after to take some baby stuff for mum. I broke down again and i can tell they're shocked to see me like that, They comfort me and walked me home after that. DD waited for me and made me a drink. He later offered to look after Dylan so i can sleep but still i woke up at 5am plus again but manage to catch a nap in the noon.

Yes, i do feel guilty whenever the Bonkers cry. I always think i do something wrong which make them feel discomfort or insecure. And i dont understand why whenever i feel down or cry people always use my characteristics to say i'm not strong. I dont say out doesnt mean i've no perspective in life or to some situations. Its just that i'm still thinking, observing and trying not to make a big hoo-ha out of it.

And lastly, a super duper big no no - i never thought of killing the Bonkers or myself. Thats too extreme and inhumane.

2009-01-20T21:41:00.003+08:00

From married to being a mum made me feel left out from the outside world. Though i very much wanna spend every sec with the Bonkers, there are times i feel alone. Luckily we're moving back to my mum's place soon. We'll be looking after them together and at least mum can acc me. If not i think i'll kena depression lolz!

I tot i'm going to kena depression coz i'm looking after them myself. I'm deprived for a good night sleep. Nights are tough esp they need to be fed every 2 to 3hrs. And in between need to change diapers etc... And i have stretch marks everywhere, sigh... I tried to ignore them by thinking having baby no 3 in a few yrs time hahaha!!

Dar working full time now, less flexible and we cant meet up often now. Think my only friends now are my mum, Dar and computer coz i can online shop lolz!! I can sms them in the middle of the night n they can get shock by it, esp my mum oops!

I hope i can have my own house soon...

2009-01-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

Dar bought me bags! Presents for my ROM, wedding & erm...giving birth hahaha!!

I'm in love with this baby pram from Mothercare. Have to go down to Habour Front's branch to take a closer look.

random pics of the bonkers

2009-01-07T22:45:00.012+08:00

My Bonkers!!!

Random pics of Dylan - The Fierce & the Curious.

Random pics of Dean - The Sweet & Photogenic.

2008-12-10T02:30:00.002+08:00

Congrats to Henry Low from Action City! Newly weds!!!
Congrats to Rabind Giri on being a dad again! Baby Boy!!!!
Looking forward a gd night's sleep & full body massage...

2008-12-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

I watched Bolt!
I had a new hair cut! SUper duper short! I look like my bro now...
Both twin's head are down!
DD cant carry me anymore coz i'm too fat lolz!!
Hmm... nothing else to update. zzzzzzzzz......

2008-11-29T14:16:00.001+08:00

Shall we party on the sea some day?? http://www.marinakeppelbay.com/MN_BC.asp

C905

2008-11-28T13:43:00.003+08:00

This is so much better...

2008-11-27T09:13:00.006+08:00

Think i'll name the bonkers Dean n Dylan.
I got flu n cough =(
Getting lazier to move around...
Getting my hair cut for the last time b4 confinement.
Choon had her name changed - Lim Ting Xuan Claris. woooooooooo!!!
DD start exam soon.
Edwin bday coming.
Cousin Rachel's wedding day is near.
CZ n Jit coming back in Dec. Wonder where's Taufiq... Lost in Sydney??
Xmas party soon! Hopefully can make it =)
I give my heart out to this girl... often have to tahan this kns fellow's temper n etc. Maybe i should get her pink crystals to aid her in her love life. She got better choices but still stick to thei kns fellow. Sigh... Love is blind? If i'm her i would have dump that fellow...

Its time for 'U COMPLAIN'

2008-11-18T16:12:00.004+08:00

So diff to sleep at night.
The twins go bonkers inside my tummy.
SOmetimes it can be round, can be oval, can be heart shape or out of shape.
They're super active at night when i'm about to fall asleep.
Hence, i ended up not sleep or only slept a few hrs.
And now they wan more food AT NIGHT TIME ONLY. *Diaoz....
Heather got 1 terror, i'm having 2 bonkers.

Shit happens

2008-11-12T21:55:00.006+08:00

Things happened lately:
1. House FLOOD.
2. One of the twins' head have headed down, the other one turning down also. Which means = anytime soon??

Found the following quize from amanda's & Serene's blog.

You are a Leader

Your solid grounding in the practicalities of life, along with your self-assuredness and your willingness to appreciate new things make you a LEADER.

You're in touch with what is going on around you and adept at remaining down-to-earth and logical.

Although you're detail-oriented, this doesn't mean that you lose the big picture.

You tend to find beauty in form and efficiency, as opposed to finding it in broad-based, abstract concepts.

Never one to pass on an adventure, you're consistently seeking and finding new things, even in your immediate surroundings.

Because of this eagerness to pursue new experiences, you've learned a lot; your attention to detail means that you gain a great deal from your adventures.

The intellectual curiosity that drives you leads you to seek out causes of and reasons behind things.

Your confidence gives you the potential to take your general awareness and channel it into leadership.

You're not set on one way of doing things, and you often have the skills and persistence to find innovative ways of facing challenges.

You are well-attuned to your talents, and can deal with most problems that you face.

You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.

Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

There's more to life than the practical - take some time to daydream and explore the aesthetic sides of things.

how you relate to others
You are Advocating

Being social, empathic, and understanding makes you ADVOCATING.

Some people find being around others exhausting—but not you! You are energized by spending time with friends, and you are good at meeting new people.

One of the reasons you enjoy conversation as much as you do is that you often learn about yourself while talking things out with a friend; you realize things about your own beliefs while discussing them with others.

You have insight into what others are thinking and feeling. This ability allows you to be happy for others, and to commiserate when something has gone wrong for them.

You are highly compassionate, and being conscious of how things affect those close to you leaves you cautious about trusting others too hastily.

Despite these reservations, you are open-minded when it comes to your worldview; you don't look to impose your ways on others.

Your sensitivity towards others' plights contributes to an understanding—both intellectual and emotional—of many different perspectives.

As someone who understands the complexities of the world around you, you are reluctant to pass judgments.

If you want to be different:

While it's important to think about others, don't forget to take some time for yourself, and occassionally to put yourself first.

Take some time to spend with a few close friends; although it's difficult to find people to trust, it's worth the effort.

When you have great ideas, it can be hard to relinquish control, but it can also feel good to take the pressure off and enjoy someone else leading the way.

26-OCT-2008

2008-11-01T15:42:00.001+08:00

Alex's cake is BIGGER & he'd CANDLES. I DONT HAVE & IT"S SMALLER!! DD BIAS!!!

Recieved lots of baby stuff and the girls bought me Incanto Heaven perfume. Think i can use for 2yrs or maybe more. hahahahaha!

And Noor Aizan, for your info i still look the same while pregnant. No change.

CAKES!!

2008-10-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

Cakes from The Patissier! So cute & tasty but they cost a bomb....

2008-10-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

Suddenly 2 names came to my mind - Dean & Dash! Double Ds!
Faizah ordering catering from ISS. We'll share cost.
Bought cakes fr 717 Trading (DURIAN CAKE!) & Chocabloc (RICH DARK CHOCOLATE!).
Hoping to go shopping for baby pram & new clothes for twins soon.
Auntie Pat trying to get freebies for the twins which include diapers and milk powder.
Haven swim for 2 wks..... and the weather is changing already. Monsoon season!

2008-10-14T19:30:00.004+08:00

I wish i could get out more often. I eat more and walk more. Feel more energised. But DD doesnt have time everyday. Even if have, we've no transport to go out fr farm. So bored. I wonder how he's going to get me to the hospital if i were to be in labour in the middle of the night. Seems scary..........

Been home at my parents' place for a few days now. Visited Mum today and damn the hospital feels warm. Are all NTUCs and the hospitals saving electricity nowadays??

Now i know the most painful moment is when the twins start using their elbows and rub under your skin in your tummy! Not when they kick! I was eating when they did that. I almost got choked! SOmetimes i dont feel pregnant at all coz (1)tummy looks small, (2)there's no weight n (3)no movement n i can even chase after buses. BUT! I do feel heavy at times. I've to 'hold n carry' my tummy. Dad laugh at it eveytime i do that and he predict i wont be able to walk any further than 20 steps when i'm at 8mths. Duh........... And just 2 days ago i experienced 'earthquake' fr my tummy hahahaha! Suddenly shake so hard my whole body move. Dad thot i'm falling off the sofa hahahaha!!!!!!!!!

Rafael - Spain - Healed.
Rohan - Spain, Sanskrit - Healing, medicine
Kobe - Jap - Its a name of a beef fr Jap restaurant menu! Next yr is the Yr of Cow

NOWADAYS!

2008-10-11T10:27:00.006+08:00

I seriously hate taking public transport esp MRT. People esp youngsters and foreigners and some MEN/GUYS just stare at me n my tummy for some time and continue staring without giving up their seats to me. And they pretend to be busy 'digging gold' from their bags,playing psp, sleeping or talking loudly on their bloody hp. ESP THOSE OCCUPYING THE PRIORITY SEATS! Seriously i think they should put an extra sign - PLS DO NOT OCCUPY THIS SEAT UNLESS YOU FALL IN ONE OF THESE CATEGORIES. IGNORANCE FINE $500. Its always uncles and aunties giving up seats to me, and they're carrying heavy bags of stuff. I feel bad sometimes but my back can hurt like no tomm at times. Even old folks they also ignore! Me, having to be carrying a ball with me all times (tummy may look small but they have weight ok), have to give up seats to them man. Nowadays youngsters and foreigners..... sigh..... They should really open their eyes and use their bloody brains. If not, pls use your butt. You were given legs for reasons and purposes. Pls use it.

Is Landon & Coby a nice name?

2008-10-09T10:34:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! 3 more mths to go and my body will be free!!! Plus i can eat whatever i wan!!!
Micah & Mikal sounds the same and erm...gay....
Personally i like Rohan & Rafael. The most the folks will pronouce it as Luohan & Lafil lolz!!!
Sad... my q no for the BTO flat is 361. heh........

Names for twins

2008-09-26T20:24:00.003+08:00

DD n i thought of some names for our twins. Come on people lets do some polling! hahaha!

Raphael
Babel
Nadel
Giggs
Micah
Mikel
Johan
Rohan
Ernie
Bernie
Flavio
Felipe

2008-09-24T19:58:00.000+08:00

I wanna buy N6600 Slide!!!!

Baby boys!

2008-09-22T11:10:00.005+08:00

It's cfm! I'm having 2 boys! Just as i expected! Everyone in the family are so happy and looking forward. It was really hilarious when we went for the detailed scan at the hospital. You can see them fighting and kicking each other. One of the twins was pushed to the corner with his face squeezed!! So funny! But they are good boys coz they listen to me lolz!! Twin 1's position was the same as me when we saw him. We were trying to see twin 2 when he was being 'bullied' by his bro. So when we asked twin 1 to move a bit, he actually did. And twin 2 finally manage to turn and showed us the thumbs-up sign. LOLZ!!!!!!

Guess what?! They've got our features! Both got dd's forehead, got my lips, got dd's long limps and fingers, got my chubby cheeks. The dr said my tummy may look small but my babies are fit and healthy. What makes me even more happy is that she said that with this size n type of tummy, i will be able to go back to my original figure very soon! HAHAHA! My Levis jeans got hope!!!!

Finally i've got appetite and am eating more. But wasnt growing any fatter except tummy getting bigger and heavier. Babies weight at 400g each at the moment. Hope they'll grow fatter and healthier as time goes by. Looking forward to you guys next yr babies!!!! ANyone wants to take part in choosing their christian names??

Guess what dd replied when i asked him if he wants another baby? hahahaha!

angry........

2008-09-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

So angry with the twins last night. They made me vomit 3 times in a row within half an hr!!! And i keep feeling hungry. And they keep kicking. And when there's nothing to vomit, i vomit fluid!!! Even plain water they also reject! So angry i scolded them and went to sleep. REFUSE TO EAT! humpf.

!!!

2008-09-10T10:24:00.004+08:00

So envy....
So left out....
So miss working life....
So bored i dont know what to do.
Bake? Cook? Swim? Shop? Knit? Mop? Sweep? Sleep? Games? Slack?
Keep hiding at home. I feel my body is erm.... funny looking...
Wish Jan 2009 comes faster and keeps me busy!
Wonder how they look like.... dark? fair?
Plans plans plans!
NZ or Spain?
MDIS or SIM?

NEW BTO!

2008-08-28T00:01:00.003+08:00

Newly launch Aug 2008 Built-to-order flat @ Senja. Went to apply for the 4-rm flat online. Actually should have went down to HDB personally, there got more flats avaliable which wasnt put online. Hope we can get our idea flat!

Some pics to share

2008-08-12T00:01:00.004+08:00

They tried to kidnapped choon n my bro.

They tried ambush.... but failed...........

aww.. u fed me, now my turn!

the 'yum seng' match. the NPCC won of coz...

THIS IS THE JUG!

THEY SHARED ONE.

DD DRANK ALONE.

SEE! I GOT PROVE CHOON KEPT DRINKING THAT NIGHT! SHE DRANK MARTELL NEAT!

THEN RED WINE!

SERENE ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They planned to go MOS with ZH, Alex n Andy 'just for awhile' coz faizah wanna take a look. BUT! Shit happens.........

My tummy @ 3 mths

2008-08-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

My tummy @ 4mths! I can feel their movements hahaha!!

Pics!

2008-07-31T21:28:00.003+08:00

The bitter, the misery, the sweetness and the 'contract'.
ok, i look tired in all the pics i took that day.... tired...........

poor dudes.........

BUSY

2008-07-15T11:41:00.004+08:00

Getting busier as the actual day is nearer... sometimes angry with DD with certain stuff.
Haven buy mattress as bffs coming over to stay.
Received lots of presents from relatives - Cyma watch, baby pram, necklace, rings, bracelets.
Guo Da Li wasn't easy! Didn't know what to take or return. Luckily aunt & grandma came over to help.
Ang Baos for tea ceremony, sisters, brothers, etc are ready!
Eddie ask me to come home even after wed coz no one's at wdlands home. No food no company.

Been thinking if i should continue to work. No one gonna help me with the kids after i gave birth. Even looking for confinement lady is diff coz i'm giving birth during CNY. And its double the price! And also, childhood only happen once, i wanna be part of it. Mentally wanna work coz of the pay, physically refuse coz tired and backache. And the clinic have been waiting for me for 2 mths, if i reject now it's a bit......................

The chosen gowns

2008-07-03T14:16:00.003+08:00

Yeah!! chose my evening gown n tea dress ytd. The morning gown remain unchanged coz bffs chose for me. Just add more crystals to the bottom can already. Guess what? My evening gown is shocking pink! I can suit bffs's purple dresses!! Wohoo! So excited to see! Tea dress will be a simple lace dress with ribbon.

2008-07-01T12:57:00.003+08:00

Think everyone sees me like a monster.

Met this lady, Deslyn, from Lee Hwa. She's in her 30s but look like late 2os. Trust me, she's beautiful n tall. She was telling me about her marriage and daughter, which makes me think if i can do it like her. She's married for 10yrs, only gave birth 4yrs ago. She left her 5.5k per mth job when she found out she's pregnant until recently then she came out to work again. I was like 'WOW'. She shared with me alot of stuff while i was there. Its like we're chatting not buying/selling anything hahah! Think her manager angry with her also. If you guys wanna buy anything can go look for her at IMM. She'll give good price.

Came home weeping like a child looking for mum's warmth. But end up in bed alone hugging bolster. Was feeling super tired, whole body aching. End up Dr Sau suggested i go back to work after i finish my whole wedding thingy. I'm jobless for this mth of july! But have other things to do. The girls did up the ang bao boxes for me. Think i go buy some decors for the reception table. Dont know how to do it, maybe just look around for some inspirations.

Think i implement everyone trouble. And i've become very very bored. Couldn't get out of the house without feeling uneasy. Ears keep feeling stuck, can only hear my own breathing loudly ha! Ytd when Dr Sau they all talk to me i keep 'huh?!', made them fed up!

2008-06-28T10:02:00.003+08:00

It's not that i dont want to apologize, its the way how to put it.

Finally feel their heartbeats again. Felt relieved... the past 1 wk i cant feel them, so scary! Went for checkup on thurs, dr say they're healthy and can see their hearts beating. phew..........

Even though taking 1wk break from work, i'm still busy. Buying the trad ceremony stuff wasnt easy. Alot of procedures to follow and the DOs & DONTs. Choosing 4 dian jin was confusing coz all looks nice - price even nicer! Still have 1 more set to choose tomm.

Cousin Rachel choosing her gown tomm! And i'm tagging along! Mine haven choose coz no time, maybe next wk. Photos from the photo shoot are out, chose 72 out of 200+ pics. Actually the pics all look normal. I like the studio pic of Lifang's. Very glam!!! Like Las Vagas!

DD brought back his god-bros wed box. I still prefer the one Serene did. Can you believe it?! Some people give ang bao without $$ inside. Duh..........

Having 2nd thots about working. I was thinking - whats the use of a mother giving birth but not looking after her children herself? The first 3 yrs of a child is the most important - from baby bible. But come to think again, you nv know what will happen in future. WHat if husband die suddenly? What if you got divorce and jobless n husband wants custody? Thinking too much? Its fact. Women must have a backup path for themselves no matter what coz in the end we still stand a chance to lose. Mum might not be helping me coz she cant handle 2 kids at a time. I always complain people treat me like an octopus at work, now i wish i'm one at home.

2008-06-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

fri:
went far east fro mani.pedi with serene.

sun:
went photoshoot ytd from start from 9am till 8pm. Super tired. Fell asleep while waiting for sunset. Manage to caught the train in time n took pic with it.

mon:
slpet almost whole day. shiok!

The whole wedding thingy - sucks.
The gowns - heahache.
The driver & car thingy - done.
The guests - If cant come just let me know. Dont tell me see first or let me know by like a few days b4 the dinner. duhz....
The sisters dresses - confusion. 1 design can't fit them all.
The brothers suit - done.
The photographers - found.
The family thingy - super duper bloodily @#$%&*^
The overall stress - 105%

2008-06-19T12:27:00.001+08:00

I feel the babies' heartbeat strongly. Hope they both survive and grow.

2008-06-16T13:12:00.002+08:00

Smart people can really ask brilliant qns.
And their very brilliant qns can extend till 'y dont u change ur date to next mth next yr this date that date'.
Hello, my big day or yours? Ya know what? DON'T COME.

Already chose gowns, now waiting for photo shoot and gown fitting.
Am still surprise with the news. Hope i can make it. Damn i'm trained to multi task, hmm...
Sometimes its boring. Cant go drinking anymore, walk so the very slow n clumsy!

Guest list almost ready, luckily got the restaurant but limited seats.
SOmetimes i'm so vexed i've got terrible headache. Every am i wake up thinking how life would be if i'm not working. haha! But if i dont work i've nothing to do but laze around. Maybe i should consider part time.

2008-06-06T14:27:00.003+08:00

ok i'm becoming more n more lazy. i rather read then update my own blog or just reply people via tag board. Getting more n more uncomfy nowdays, restless sleep / rest.

didnt go work today coz feeling unwell. damn it. but luckily my colleagues were understanding. more n more people resigning maybe coz too stressful n demanding. i wonder how some people can stay 10yrs in their job. it's either they have no choice (too old or with kids at home) or the place is too cozy for them to leave (comfort zone!). hahaha!

anybody wanna join me for yoga.?? so bored to go alone. bloody faizah left me after signing up tsk tsk....

2008-06-03T13:30:00.002+08:00

For recent outing with the girls, i decided to just cut n paste from their blogs instead coz its the same! LOLZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No la just kidding. Anyway just read their blogs.

YEAH! 14th going to choose gown! Then everything will start... sigh.... i can forsee the headaches and fights i'll be going thru with DD n family. Anyone got any new ideas of where to take night shots in spore? Esplanade is boring. Sentosa too common.

Feeling tummy ache more often nowadays with the frequent waking up in the middle of the nights. So the not enough sleep zzzzzzzzzzz.........

2008-05-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

tired.
hungry.
sleepy.
worried.
happy.
surprised.
a little pain.

2008-05-13T13:16:00.003+08:00

DD bought me this bag.

Considering this red one. hmm...

Each of us is a God. Buddha had said. Each of us knows all. We need only open our minds to hear our own wisdom.

I said it. I done it. I told the truth. Last Day - end June.
Everyone was so upset with me.
Kak refuse to talk to me for a moment.
Finally everyone understood.
Its never easy to be somebody's daughter in law.
I admit sometimes i refuse to help DD coz i'm so so weary. So tired. So restless. One's tiredness cannot be erase with one day's rest. Its true. Scientifically proven.

2008-05-08T23:09:00.003+08:00

The people in this pic look so oldies lolz!!!!! Look at the golden hair future principle.

Got a phone call from Wanxin n its fixed @ 12.15pm this sat.

Got a better job offer.... Nearer, higher pay, better working hrs.

Should i go or should i stay?

Even Sarena & cikin ask me to go as big organizations get pay rise very slow n diff... I'M TEMPTED.

Been window shop online lately but nv buy. DD just bought me a dress n brought me to California Pizza!

Work late lately. Even though not short of manpower i'm still working like a mad cow.

2008-05-04T17:01:00.004+08:00

1st May -
Went salon with Faizah Amanda n Serene - had my hair dyed n fringe cut. Look a bit weird, hoping the finge will grow faster! Pics up soon. Went to buy some more purple crystals to add to my pick ones. Things got a little strange after that. Must be the aura MUHAHAHA! My green crystals turning brighter also. Hmm, good career way coming??

Met up with BFFs ytd for dinner n drinks. Dinner @ Swensons drinks @ Paulaners n Harry's. It's been long since i last hangout till late. I'm like a bird getting out of its cage HAHA! I'm always working and wk ends will be spending @ farm. And oh! While @ Paulaners Amanda's bf came with 2 of his friends n we match-made Serene n him (dont know his name). That fellow look familiar to me @ first then i realised n remembered!! HAHAHA!! Serene gave him 6.5 points out of 10 hmm... wonder whats her expectations............

Still deciding to go MDIS or SIM. Best thing when studying while working - less stress @ work n easier to get leave! LOLz!!! Feel like going for mani/pedi, saw an Armani n Guess watch which i fell in love @ first sight, lack of tops n shoes... Can my pay be increased? Just add another $500 will do. Hmmm........... need to provide for my beloved younger bro duh! another financial burden.... money money is never enough. You'll spend more n family ask for more.

At Swensons.

still going strong when everyone's full.

03.l n 0.5l

The next-in-q-for-red-bomb-couple

Shots from Harry's

Choon ordered Blow Job!

Candid shot taken by brilliant Pet3

2008-04-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

My crystals are not working for me anymore coz people keep touching it............ humpf.......... even if i buy those ex one also useless....... give up.

2008-04-20T18:06:00.002+08:00

OMG i'm on online shopping spree mood again!!! But! I still rem i need to save for my NZ trip & furniture hee! No worries DD.

http://just4u.appee.com/
http://green-poppies.livejournal.com
http://www.shoplah.com/

As if i owe the bank haiz.......

get my hair fix - trim & highlight
purple crystal - bracelet again or hp accessories?
spanish course

Actually during the company lunch Prof did suggest we go for foreign language course coz we've lots of spanish & russian patients but Michelle say the hospital have translators already. sianz... no sponsors now....

2008-04-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHAT I FOUND ONLINE!!! I've got an island name same as mine in canada too!

another design of my fav bed.

fav desserts from my fav dessert store @ bugis!

2008-04-12T20:44:00.003+08:00

So envious....

I'm stress up. Feel like cutting my hair again...

This is my idea bed n its on 50% sales now!!!! But my beloved husband still cant bear to ditch his bed now. Sigh....

The crystals seem to work. hmmm... but i still wanna own a purple one.
Sianz - Fencing course delayed coz Maria going back to her hometown for 3wks. Waiting for her to come back.

2008-04-03T13:06:00.004+08:00

I'm getting restless and depressed.

Is it just me or everyone else? Work is going haywire for me and almost everyday there sure will be things going wrong for me. I already take it very slow and carefully and yet still............ sigh... grrr.....

Looking forward to sat - meeting up with the girls - finally chilling! Maybe i'll skip Maria's house-warming party. Need a break from my colleagues for awhile. Sometimes i feel left out. Maybe its just that i've no mood. I dont feel like doing anything at the moment, durrr..... To tell the truth sometime i'll have evil thoughts in my mind about my colleagues hehehehe.....

I've swollen lymph nodes and it's hurting me, giving me headaches. Dr didnt know why it swell coz i have no fever or cuts. sianz half.

DD, CAN WE GO NZ ASAP?

2008-03-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

Fencing start next mth! WooHOO!!!!
Went Gavin's 1 yr old bday! Cool!!
Teaching swimming! Maybe consider taking up the pro cert in swimming.
Learning a foreign language - Spanish or French?

2008-03-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

Today's feeling:
I miss the laughter and cheekiness of my cousin ah soon. The last time i saw him, we were having steamboat @ auntie's place. He was talking, laughing, joking, walking, waving, disturbing us. But he's not doing any of that anymore, he doesnt remember us. He forgot how to talk, how to walk, how to disturb, how to joke, how to walk, how to wave. He only stares @ you, move his body in bed, struggling and close his eyes when he's tired.

Thoughts:
If time is healer then why absence makes you/heart grow fonder?

BORING!

2008-03-15T18:44:00.003+08:00

Thoughts :
Would you cheat death using other people's life or will you follow the life cyle?

Life:
Been busy @ work... made loads of mistakes during work and i think i seriously need the purple crystals that Amanda suggested. Sigh... I dont know what's wrong but mistakes keep repeating even though i try hard not to. Diaoz......... This whole week was hectic. Feel like going back-packing but have to wait till DD term break, which is in Sept. Sigh.... Thot of going Laos, Myanmar, Cambodia & Vietnam.

Upcoming plans:
Planning for Fencing classes, waiting for the rest to make up their bloody mind. If everything goes smoothly, we'll be able to start next mth.

Hope:
Baby Ox & Baby Dragon.

Now / today:
Did my laundry and hang the clothes. Going NTUC buy groceries and mop the floor. Behaving like one typical housewife.... Going to have beer while catching my NZ trip show later in the night! Woohoo!!!!!! NZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

i know him ever since P1 i think........ hmmm...........

some random pics to share

2008-03-03T22:31:00.008+08:00

2008-02-26T20:16:00.008+08:00

The disappointing secret garden... took us a while to find it. haiz.... still prefer dempsey road.

Moments after taking vows @ ROM...

Went toy museum after that...

2008-02-26T00:00:00.008+08:00

Went cafe del mar with the girls on sat. Pretty cool but no guys to see. Went shopping after that and Serene bought a pretty white dress after we forced her to tried on some. SEXY! Faizah! Where's yours?!?

Finally went Dempsey road! Next stop - MY SECRET GARDEN! I've tasted the best pork 'chop' so far @ Dempsey road. Juicy...tender...sweet... Had dinner & wine @ the barracks and ice cream shake @ Ben & Jerry = damn full.

While i was enjoying myself, my beloved cousin is lying in NUH, in coma. Currently out of danger but doc says when he wakes up, he will not remember us anymore. He fell from a 2-storey high building while @ work. I cant go visit him coz i've wedding coming up. Really hope he can remember us soon. He's loud, funny and he make sure everyone knows he existed haha... He looked and take care of me more than my own brother do. We used to stayed up late into the night @ grandma's place, chat joke makan. I still remember he cooked a plate of very oily mee goreng for us. Though it's oily i still kind of loved it haha...

An aunty also passed away recently with her 2 daughters in Indonesia too. House collasped due to earthquake and the 3 of them are buried underneath. The girls are only 9 this yr.

Few days ago mum fell too, at home while mopping the floor. She had a very big bruise on her head, back and wrist. Life and death is part and parcel of the life cycle but still i'm not ready to lose anyone yet. Been stress up @ work and home, feeling of wedding is absent. It's like nothing, just like any other day. I dont even bother if the decors are up and ready, i dont care about the dress i'm wearing, the make-up, the hair-do or the guys' complainings about why the bridesmaids not doing anything yet. I removed the extensions coz they're itching me like nobody's business.

Hoping to see my cousin soon after the 29th feb.

Fav corner @ Ben & Jerry's

maira @ work =P

a very stress kakak

Daphne last day.

2008-02-20T16:38:00.003+08:00

Cruz beckham break dancing! and he's only 3!!! soooooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!

what a bully!

do i look weird?

2008-02-16T09:42:00.001+08:00

2008-02-15T17:23:00.001+08:00

I had my hair extented! Look and feel so weird ha!

2008-02-14T13:35:00.002+08:00

CNY was good! Went bai nian to my relatives place. And as usual, gambling @ da gu's place. But! This yr they set up a mini gambling den ha! I won quite alot just by using $2 hee! Shiok! Almost got addicted.

By any chance anyone interested in Fencing? I need a group consiting of 6 to start off. So far i've found centers in Ubi, Parkway YMCA & Novena. hmm....

2008-02-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

why is the world so cruel? why is there people who wants to harm other people and take whatever they have? why are there people who are so persistant and wants something that doesnt belong to them or fated not to have it? sigh.....

SAREES!!!

2008-02-02T11:59:00.000+08:00

I've got one blue from India! woohoo!

2008-01-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

Pet3 ans the phone!
Pet3 take out the casenotes!
Pet3 i need this card!
Pet3 no more folders!
Pet3 this patient wants to make appt!
Pet3 call tomm's patients!
Pet3 inform the drs!
Pet3 do billing!
Pet3 do medisave!
Pet3 file this back!
Pet3 where's this case card?!
Pet3 do this!
Pet3 do that!

PET3 IS NOT AN OCTOPUS WITH 5 BRAINS!!!

2008-01-20T14:51:00.000+08:00

I've chose my dress but kind of forgot how it looks like. It's a short dress, cream in colour. Top part is corset look-a-like and bottom is a bit fluffy. Overall its like a european style ballet dress. I only know boots and ballet-like shoes with long straps suits the dress. The girls are wearing pink and should oga wear pink also?? lolz!

anyone sponsoring cupcakes or anything? LOLZ!!! End of the mth gonna go shopping for decors and stuff. Any idea where to get those stuff cheap? Cloths, ribbons, ballons etc.

2008-01-09T19:59:00.000+08:00

I STILL WANNA KNOW WHO SENT ME THAT LETTER. IT'LL NEVER LEAVE MY BLOODY BRAIN AND MY MEMORY. TO THAT WHOEVER WHO WANNA MAKE ME THINK AND THINK AND WONDER - YOU'VE GOT YOUR MOTIVE. YOU SUCCEEDED.

Anyone know where's the best place for medi/pedi spa? I'll go book appt and we'll go on feb 28th!! End of jan i wanna go make shoes @ Tanjong Pagar! Who's free?!?

2008-01-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

Suddenly realized i've no life. It's all about work work work and hone and tv and farm and DD. No more. So bored. Clubbing, pubbing, supper-ing, roaming seems to fade far away from me nowadays. Aww man....

With the ROM coming, DD & i are both tired out. Buffet, decor and guest list to prepare etc. Time to ask the babes & dudes for help i guess. Coz we tried not to ask them for help, didnt wanna bother them with out own stuff. GIRLS! Wanna go medi/pedi spa one day?? Btter before 29th feb pls...............

I HATE DR NATH!!!!!!!!! ALWAYS MAKE US STAY BACK & WORK FOR HIM!!!

retro pic

2007-12-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

Found this in DD's photo album. CLASSIC!

To Shuyun

2007-12-25T15:38:00.001+08:00

Dearest DD,

Its just one of the very mudane day where 2 Shuyuns were at the concourse. Ong is at one end with his buddies while Tioh is at the other with her girls. After some chatting and crapping around, i was introduced to a very similar name to mine (diff pronouciation), Ong Shuyun, Yanying's classmate.

I mistook that Yanying had a crush on him coz at that very same time i was told that Amanda liked Alex. Think i mixed the two up. Anyways, i didnt pay much attention to Ong. Just think of him as the normal boy with a very small face/head hahaha!!!

We finally met on one of the saturdays where we all attended our CCAs. And at that time SJAB was forced to share a room (or office) with the Prefects. QYZ happened to be the Head prefect and in NPCC. He, being itchy hand, went to one of our unlock cabinets and took a list of our contacts. I forgot who's responsible for the locking of cabinets but he took it. I dont know how Ong got to get my number but definitely from QYZ. I only know Ong called me in the evening around 8pm plus while i'm still in uniform hahaha!! He called and i made a fool out of myself! DUH!

He sounded quite diff on the phone (i've heard his voice in real life before he called) and i insisted he was Wei Quan ha!! He even told me his IC no, home address and birth date!! Well he gave up and asked QYZ to call me and confirm..... and that bud of his just shrugged it off by saying he ate too much chilli earlier on. diaoz..... I was quiet most of the time as i was shy. I didnt know how to face him in sch the next day hahaha (We always pretend we dont know each other)!!

After the hilarious phone call, he call back again and again and again and sparks started until 8/10/99 when he asked if he could be my guy. I was dumb-founded. I called Amanda and told her what happended and she encouraged me. I only told him 'Yes' the next day when he call.

It takes time and effort to build a love-nest together.

Love,

Petrie

From Shuyun

2007-12-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

Lovest Dear,

Time have pass so fast that we have been together for almost 8 year now, through thick and thin. From last time where you portray to me as someone so unsure about love till now, where you shower me with unconditioned love, taking care of me when I'm sick and showing me support for what I'm doing. Even though we may fight sometimes, but they make our relationship even stronger, better. Hopefully, we'll get the nod from your parents soon, taking us to another new height, to another new challenge.

I still laugh over how we get to know each other over these years. The first time i saw you, i just ask myself," Who's that girl standing at the front of the school giving command? New girl? Never see her before and she sure looks like a malay." Not bothering about it, days went pass and somehow, get to know that the 'malay girl' was actually a chinese and studying at the same level, sec 3! Always manage to see her coming out of the prefect room during the start of the school and funny as it is, we seems to always cross path.

Things actually progress when one day, my buddy, Yizheng, came to tell me that she's of the same name as mine! Haha, what a small world it is. Fancy meeting someone in the school with the same name, which I've always been joke about by friends and teacher, as it is kind of a girl's name. Days turn to weeks and when i really took notice her was when Yizheng tell me that she's kind of interested in me. Must be a joke! But her smile and cheerfulness with her friends start to attract me as days pass. Slowly and slowly, I fall for her.

One day after our NPCC training, Yizheng and I went to the Mac behind our school to have our lunch. There, i ask him for her number as he told me that he had stolden their St John's telephone list. How great was that! I copy down her number and had a hearty meal. But the real problem is to come, how am I going to call her, what should we talk about. I'm really shy when i have to talk to a girl whom i don't know and that does not helps. Finally, after several days, i finally plucked up enough courage to call her and god, she don't believe that I'm actually who i am even though i tell her my ic number and birthday and address(kind of stupid come to think about that). In order to prove to her I aam who I am, I asked Yizheng to tell her. Haha! that's so, funny! What a great way to know each other! From then, i call her often and chatted and slowly win her heart over.

To start a relationship, what matter at first is the beginning. If there's no start, there wouldn't be this relationship with you. The 'her', is you, and I really know the way we know each other, really makes a deep impression in us don't they? Hope we'll treasure this relatonship and conquer whatever problems present to us, of course, together.

Yours,

Shu Yun

2007-12-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

Finally finish the gown hunting and signed up with Yvonne Creative. After going round visiting wedding boutiques, we both have become more experience and know how to bargain more. First time in my 23 yrs of life i swiped off $1000 in a min! LOLZ! And of coz after that i lost appetite diaoz.... Actually wanted to go BKK coz its very cheap and nice. We can also spend a few days there like a short holiday but i dont think DD's schedule can fit in until end April next yr. But i saw a few albums taken in Bintan. So nice, dont know iff DD will add in that...

2007-12-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

2007-12-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of people telling me 'I dont know' & 'How'. There's no such things as 'i dont know' & 'how' to everything. Only solutions. I want things or problems to be solved and get it over and done with. Dragging only gives me headaches. If you want it then come and claim it. Fight for it.

Whatever i do, my loved one sides him. Whats wrong with me of getting things done? They prefer to drag problems also?? Whats the big deal of working and studying at the same time? I've been there, done that. Studying whilr lying in hospital isnt fun too. Dont come bullshit to me. Its hard, i know. Not only you. There're lots of people doing the same thing.

Before dusk there's always darkness. But eventually there'll be light.

Never agree to marry a guy when he never propose. Its not worth it in giving in to him for this.

2007-12-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

Just bought W910i hee! Found out i dont really like the hp oops! The keypad's so flat... Anybody wanna buy from me?? Wanna change to K660i (wine red). hmm...

Been tired, haven rest enough and there comes the cold sores & backaches again. Some people at work just need to suck my blood every single day. Working with them makes me frown every min. Think i should own one crystal bracelet that Amanda have for work relationship stuff. Ha!

Another round of gown hunting. Went Milan and its like going for a 4hr lecture, listening to them talk about their package and trying on the gowns. The package is good but so far i haven seen a gown that i like. I tried quite a number of pieces but DD only tka pic of some coz scare the ladies found out he's taking pic hahah! Wanted to go Yvonne Creation but too scare and tired to go for another 'lecture'. Maybe we'll go next wk again. Yawwnnn........ Think next time i walk into a bridal shop, i'll intro them Raffles Dental also lolz! Vice versa!

Next stop ---> Yvonne Creation & DI GIO BRIDAL!

2007-12-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

PLS SUPPORT MY FRIEND AND HIS WIFE! They just set up their own business online. Thank you! http://www.dorabase-fashion.blogspot.com/